What the hell am I doing here?

Have you ever walked into a party and thought, “What the hell am I doing here?”.  If so, we’ve something in common. I’m an introvert; I’m reflective, intuitive, pensive. What that really means is that I’m shy. I observe situations and people before I take the leap. I saw this as an hindrance, so I would ‘fake it to make it’ and often pretend to be an extrovert. For introverts, this is exhausting. Both Lisa Petrilli and Mack Collier have written inspired posts about introverts living in an extroverted world and their thoughts have helped me better learn about and accept myself.

But what the hell am I doing HERE?

When I first joined Twitter and Facebook, I lurked and listened. I agonized over so many of my posts; would I offend someone somehow, would I sound like an idiot, would I be relevant. So plagued with doubt!

In a flash of inspiration (ok, no flash … just a thought), it occurred to me that I’m not the first person, nor the last, to feel this way. So, I made the effort to find accidental mentors. Find experts (the real versus the self-proclaimed), read their blogs, and start following them. People with serious Smartitude (big tip of the hat to Mack Collier, one of my favourite accidental mentors, for gifting that word to the world).

I began to engage by replying to a tweet, retweeting with an (hopefully) intelligent and relevant addendum, and joining in conversations like #BlogChat and #LeadershipChat. I aimed to give more than I expected to received. I spoke in my own voice, with some tremors of misgiving and doubt, asked questions (and sometimes answered a few), and sought advice.

My day job is engage in social media for my clients. I speak in my voice, it’s authentic and genuine, for organizations who need to spread their message. This blog is my foray into speaking as me, for me. So I’ll stumble along and trust that my community will have no reticence to critique, guide, and enlighten me.

This blog is going to be about my adventures and growth (with hope that the latter will occur) in this social media veldt. I’ll talk about my life lessons and share ‘Smartitude’ when I have or find some. My aim is open myself up, share, and learn.

What are your biggest fears about diving into the social media ocean?

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6 Responses to What the hell am I doing here?

  1. Mack Collier says:

    Tobey you’ve got your own blog! I think my biggest fear when I first jumped into social media 6 years ago was worrying that no one would care about what I had to say. We all want to know that the content we create resonates with others, and I don’t think that will ever change. As long as there are bloggers, we will want to have comments on our posts.

    And here’s one for you, I doubt it will be the last ;)

  2. tobeydeys says:

    Thank you, my friend. Obviously, your fears were unfounded :-) and my comments on YOUR thoughts will abound!

  3. Todd Jordan says:

    Congrats on the new blog. Hey, if you’ve got something to say, what better way than via a blog.
    Write.Share.Love.
    Todd
    @tojosan
    PS – wrong attribution on my other comment – Tweet by Mack up there.

  4. Hi Tobey,

    Honored that my “Introverts Guide” posts have helped you in some small way – I sincerely appreciate that! And I love that you are opening yourself up via your blog – you will learn so much about yourself in the process!

    Last May when I launched my blog I came extremely close to not going through with it at the last minute – I suddenly realized how much I would be opening myself up, and how scary it really was. Thanks to a few friends – including Mack – I pulled myself out of the “rabbit hole” and launched.

    It’s been one of the most soulful experiences I’ve ever had. Wishing you nothing but the same with yours,

    Lisa Petrilli

    • tobeydeys says:

      Thank you, Lisa! Your ‘Introverts Guide’ posts support me in an huge way. You are one of my greatest inspirations; you’re open, kind, and honest and I feel that you truly allow people to get to know you. I am definitely out of my comfort zone doing this but I’ve learned that’s where one has to go to grow.

      I have friends encouraging me (also including Mack – he’s kinda wonderful that way, isn’t he? :-)) I realized that nothing bad has ever happened by ‘being me’ so a blog probably won’t kill me. I’m excited (quietly, in my introverted way) and scared but, here goes.

      Thanks again, Lisa – sharing your thoughts with me means a lot.

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